Monday, 18 August 2008
Scan Thursday!
Just a quick entry to say that the scan appointment has come through for this Thursday! I'm all of a flutter...I don't like uncertainty at all, but I'm not entirely sure if certainty is better. Twin certainty seems rather alarming, particularly. I'm rather enjoying my twin fantasies though - if it's a singleton, I shall have to get back down to earth. Mind, I can start thinking happy homebirth and babywearing thoughts once again!
Sunday, 17 August 2008
Thursday, 14 August 2008
12 weeks 4 days
Well, I saw the midwife today as promised. All well with me, lovely rich red blood, nice clean wee, and beautiful blood pressure.
We heard Pea's little heart beating away...he really is in there! She found it straight away, after the customary do not panic if I don't find it straight away/at all talk. Michael was thrilled, and had the presence of mind to record the sound on his phone. Pea sounds like a little steam train going through a tunnel.
The fun part is that she felt my uterus was much more like a 14 or 15 week uterus. Can you see where this is going?! She assumed my dates were just a few weeks out, but I could assure her that they're not! I watched my tests go from BFN at 7 DPO, through pale second lines to a digital positive at 10 DPO. Plus I know my temps and my body! So, either Pea is a big baby enjoying much personal space in a super deluxe giant amniotic sac, or he's two Peas! TWO Peas! Possibly twins people! My golly gosh!
Given this, we agreed to book in for a scan in the next couple of weeks. If I have a license to eat for three, I need to know! The midwife didn't seem to imply that the extra growth could be down to anything sinister, so I'm just excited. I know there's a healthy baby in there - and possibly its brother or sister has come along for the ride! :-)
I'm actually very reassured that I'm measuring big. I certainly feel that I look far more bumpy than anyone 12 weeks pregnant should. I love it really...I've waited a long while for this bump!
We heard Pea's little heart beating away...he really is in there! She found it straight away, after the customary do not panic if I don't find it straight away/at all talk. Michael was thrilled, and had the presence of mind to record the sound on his phone. Pea sounds like a little steam train going through a tunnel.
The fun part is that she felt my uterus was much more like a 14 or 15 week uterus. Can you see where this is going?! She assumed my dates were just a few weeks out, but I could assure her that they're not! I watched my tests go from BFN at 7 DPO, through pale second lines to a digital positive at 10 DPO. Plus I know my temps and my body! So, either Pea is a big baby enjoying much personal space in a super deluxe giant amniotic sac, or he's two Peas! TWO Peas! Possibly twins people! My golly gosh!
Given this, we agreed to book in for a scan in the next couple of weeks. If I have a license to eat for three, I need to know! The midwife didn't seem to imply that the extra growth could be down to anything sinister, so I'm just excited. I know there's a healthy baby in there - and possibly its brother or sister has come along for the ride! :-)
I'm actually very reassured that I'm measuring big. I certainly feel that I look far more bumpy than anyone 12 weeks pregnant should. I love it really...I've waited a long while for this bump!
Thursday, 7 August 2008
11 weeks 4 days
Yikes! I'm getting really pregnant! And updating, because Alice told me to :-)
I'm feeling lots better - week 10 was something of a watershed for me. The sickness is much more morning sickness and hunger sickness than all day, which is a relief. I'm still feeling a bit grotty, but lots better. Pea has been behaving beautifully, no cause for concern anywhere. I had some awful period style pains today, but think it might be my uterus protesting at my normal jeans! I've got quite a bump now, although I felt rather hurt today as my friend at work described it as being 'all food'! There's a baby the size of a lime in there somewhere, so I can't think it's all food! I think I'm going to need to graduate to maternity jeans soon as I'm very fed up of having tummy ache from baby compression.
The baby now has a buggy - a Stokke Xplory, the buggy we chose many months ago! It's enormous and very imposing, but means Pea can face me at chatting height until he's a confident walker. It was an ebay "bargain", still very expensive! We have money for Pea's things based on some money left to me when my Gran died last year...otherwise we'd really struggle.
I'm convinced Pea is a boy. He just feels like a boyish tenant! My Dad had a dream about a little boy too. We now have a frontrunner boy's name (which I love!), so I'm rather excited! We hope to find out for certain at my 20 week scan (on the 6th of October...squeak!). We're seeing the midwife on Thursday (a week today) to hopefully hear Pea's heart, which is rather exciting. We can also then TELL PEOPLE!!! Hoo-jolly-ray! Part of me wishes I had a doppler (and thank you for your kind offer, Ali), but most of me thinks that I'd either get a bit obsessed or panicky if I couldn't find the baby's heart, and I'm seeking to avoid that kind of intervention as much as possible. I just want to trust Jesus and Pea to sort it out between them, and I'll keep on providing the womb.
I had new baby squidges with my friend's baby yesterday :-) I'm so glad I'm growing one of my own!
I'm feeling lots better - week 10 was something of a watershed for me. The sickness is much more morning sickness and hunger sickness than all day, which is a relief. I'm still feeling a bit grotty, but lots better. Pea has been behaving beautifully, no cause for concern anywhere. I had some awful period style pains today, but think it might be my uterus protesting at my normal jeans! I've got quite a bump now, although I felt rather hurt today as my friend at work described it as being 'all food'! There's a baby the size of a lime in there somewhere, so I can't think it's all food! I think I'm going to need to graduate to maternity jeans soon as I'm very fed up of having tummy ache from baby compression.
The baby now has a buggy - a Stokke Xplory, the buggy we chose many months ago! It's enormous and very imposing, but means Pea can face me at chatting height until he's a confident walker. It was an ebay "bargain", still very expensive! We have money for Pea's things based on some money left to me when my Gran died last year...otherwise we'd really struggle.
I'm convinced Pea is a boy. He just feels like a boyish tenant! My Dad had a dream about a little boy too. We now have a frontrunner boy's name (which I love!), so I'm rather excited! We hope to find out for certain at my 20 week scan (on the 6th of October...squeak!). We're seeing the midwife on Thursday (a week today) to hopefully hear Pea's heart, which is rather exciting. We can also then TELL PEOPLE!!! Hoo-jolly-ray! Part of me wishes I had a doppler (and thank you for your kind offer, Ali), but most of me thinks that I'd either get a bit obsessed or panicky if I couldn't find the baby's heart, and I'm seeking to avoid that kind of intervention as much as possible. I just want to trust Jesus and Pea to sort it out between them, and I'll keep on providing the womb.
I had new baby squidges with my friend's baby yesterday :-) I'm so glad I'm growing one of my own!
Monday, 21 July 2008
9 weeks 1 day
Yay! Readers! Thank you girls! Although now I feel under pressure to say something interesting. Crumbs.
Well, I'm over nine weeks now. Time does pass. A friend asked if I was having a nice pregnancy the other day, and it took me by surprise. I think the honest answer is that it's OK. I don't love being pregnant yet, much as I love Pea. I don't find feeling sick a lot of the time nice, though I'm getting throughly used to it, which helps. It never occurred to me how uncomfortable the whole thing would be - not just the sickness, but aches and cramps and weird feelings inside. Feeling too full, which I suppose I am. I hope that gets better once my uterus pops out! I don't mind being tired at all, probably mostly due to having a lovely husband who does much more than his fair share and lets me go to bed at 9. I also love to sleep, so an excuse to nap is nice! I think what will be great is being able to TELL people. A fair few know already, but so many don't, and I have to pretend that actually I'm really fulfilled working in a shop and am not interested in a career at all. Which isn't true - I've found a new career, and I can deal with staying at the shop until my start date in February. After which, the 9-5ness of the shop will probably seem a whole lot more appealing!
It's interesting how much excitement about things in life is generated by others. I think Pea will seem a lot more real once all our friends are excited too. We think we're going to put off telling people until we've heard the baby's heart beating. I'm not actually sure when that will be - I'll see what the midwife thinks on Thursday.
Well, I'm over nine weeks now. Time does pass. A friend asked if I was having a nice pregnancy the other day, and it took me by surprise. I think the honest answer is that it's OK. I don't love being pregnant yet, much as I love Pea. I don't find feeling sick a lot of the time nice, though I'm getting throughly used to it, which helps. It never occurred to me how uncomfortable the whole thing would be - not just the sickness, but aches and cramps and weird feelings inside. Feeling too full, which I suppose I am. I hope that gets better once my uterus pops out! I don't mind being tired at all, probably mostly due to having a lovely husband who does much more than his fair share and lets me go to bed at 9. I also love to sleep, so an excuse to nap is nice! I think what will be great is being able to TELL people. A fair few know already, but so many don't, and I have to pretend that actually I'm really fulfilled working in a shop and am not interested in a career at all. Which isn't true - I've found a new career, and I can deal with staying at the shop until my start date in February. After which, the 9-5ness of the shop will probably seem a whole lot more appealing!
It's interesting how much excitement about things in life is generated by others. I think Pea will seem a lot more real once all our friends are excited too. We think we're going to put off telling people until we've heard the baby's heart beating. I'm not actually sure when that will be - I'll see what the midwife thinks on Thursday.
Sunday, 13 July 2008
8 weeks, and home from holiday
Eight weeks - how satisfying does that sound? And somewhere, deep inside, my baby is starting to look like a baby and not like a fish. Hooray! I had a scare yesterday, with an absolutely tiny amount of ever-so-slightly brownish-pink stained discharge (sorry for the detail!). All gone now though, symptoms as fun as ever and cervix absolutely clamped shut, so I think all is OK yet. I'm also DETERMINED not to give in to a spirit of fear over this pregnancy.
I'm not sure if I like this Blogger business yet. It feels so much less friendly than diaryland. But it's easy to use and reliable. Diaryland is such a relatively small community though...and I've been there since the days when an online diary was a really weird idea. I'm lost amongst all these great and good blogs!
Maybe I will link from Diaryland, and see if I get some readers. Readers definitely help!
Feeling odd today as transitioning home from holiday. I love both home and holiday, but the middle bit is rather peculiar.
I'm not sure if I like this Blogger business yet. It feels so much less friendly than diaryland. But it's easy to use and reliable. Diaryland is such a relatively small community though...and I've been there since the days when an online diary was a really weird idea. I'm lost amongst all these great and good blogs!
Maybe I will link from Diaryland, and see if I get some readers. Readers definitely help!
Feeling odd today as transitioning home from holiday. I love both home and holiday, but the middle bit is rather peculiar.
Wednesday, 2 July 2008
Six weeks three days
Hurrah, six weeks three days! I like these passing weeks that bring me closer to my baby and further from miscarriage statistics. I must say that Little Pea seems quite happy in there so I have no cause to worry.
Symptoms have changed a lot over the last two and a half weeks. Initially, I was very hungry and very tired, with exciting cravings (marmite, mackerel, guacamole...). It was great, just like being a man! I've never had a real love of food, so it was quite a revelation to me to sit thinking dreamily of what I could eat next.
Last week (sixth week...as in being 5 weeks x days pregnant), things got a little more complex, and this, my seventh week, has been all-out nausea. It came on pretty much exactly at 6 weeks, down to lunchtime - the four week anniversary of my ovulation. I feel ROUGH!! Constantly sicky, sort of based in my mouth throat (gaggy I suppose, but with extra sickiness). I have discovered a whole new world of really vile smells. I don't think the work smell helps either! I was actually sick today, only a little, but hope this is not the shape of things to come.
Food is a problem, I keep eating but do not fancy what I'm eating much! The thought of tastes really turn my stomach. I'm also weeing at least once nightly, and last night went to bed at 8pm.
I really don't mind though. It's such an honour to be pregnant, and I love my tiny companion! Symptoms are so reassuring too. I had my first doctor's appointment this week, and merrily declined my 12 week scan - a liberating experience! The doctor makes my "due" date 2 days later than I do, which is fine by me. The more cooking time Pea gets, the better.
Symptoms have changed a lot over the last two and a half weeks. Initially, I was very hungry and very tired, with exciting cravings (marmite, mackerel, guacamole...). It was great, just like being a man! I've never had a real love of food, so it was quite a revelation to me to sit thinking dreamily of what I could eat next.
Last week (sixth week...as in being 5 weeks x days pregnant), things got a little more complex, and this, my seventh week, has been all-out nausea. It came on pretty much exactly at 6 weeks, down to lunchtime - the four week anniversary of my ovulation. I feel ROUGH!! Constantly sicky, sort of based in my mouth throat (gaggy I suppose, but with extra sickiness). I have discovered a whole new world of really vile smells. I don't think the work smell helps either! I was actually sick today, only a little, but hope this is not the shape of things to come.
Food is a problem, I keep eating but do not fancy what I'm eating much! The thought of tastes really turn my stomach. I'm also weeing at least once nightly, and last night went to bed at 8pm.
I really don't mind though. It's such an honour to be pregnant, and I love my tiny companion! Symptoms are so reassuring too. I had my first doctor's appointment this week, and merrily declined my 12 week scan - a liberating experience! The doctor makes my "due" date 2 days later than I do, which is fine by me. The more cooking time Pea gets, the better.
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